figs and maps

The layer of mud had gotten so out of hand, her boots cracked deep and dark with every step she took across the industrial landscape. The floods had finally receeded, after a five week storm had drown most of the winter landscape in warm waters. Communication with folks further than 100 miles was difficult, at […]

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Numbness

I feel so tired and that seems impossible; my rational self bumping uglies against my emotional self.  I feel naive and ancient and entirely too curious for my own good. Why do I feel like an imposter passing as an adult? Writing this blog? living this life? It’s my life. I’ve studied hard to be […]

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Sand In Time

{And the Republic Will Fall} There’s a fear of the unknown that is so deeply ingrained into our psyche. Along side this is the fear that we are being “played for a fool”. At least in some of the observations I’ve made. In pursuing curiousity around the Fool’s Journey, I am certainly feeling like a […]

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Rubbing it in

I spent a few hours in my garden mowing down the lawn and clearing out weeds. As is my habit, once I finished I showered to scrub the grime off. It occured to me in my shower that I always end my time in the garden in better spirits. Sometimes I find new little plant […]

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Overview

It is noted that I weigh about 17 pounds heavier than I weighed on my wedding day. As Jae and I count down the hours to the 13th anniversary of our wedding day, I have been doing a lot of reflecting on emotional, physical and relationship health.  This year has been a really stressful test […]

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Asking, for a friend….

Today I went to an interview with a university program – I answered the four or five questions the interviewer had for me, and then asked an additional 45 minutes of him, trying to eek out exactly what the parameters of the program are and how I can be most successful in maintaining the delicate […]

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The way it “happens”

I have been contemplating joining a gym for quite awhile, but gunshy, because …of all the usual reasons/excuses/life.  Today I stopped in and joined a gym. It’s got the shiny new look/feel of a brand new business. I’m hoping it stays on that level. The members were following directions and wiping down the equipment. That’s […]

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